depression

Thanks Sheila. I've gone back up on my Venlafaxine to 150 as 75 was making me feel so low. I only managed 2 hours at work Thursday The Psychiatrist suggested I go back to 150 if I wasn't managing so thats what I've done. Its a bit frustrating tho as I liked the thought of coming off the Venlafaxine. Even though I still get a bit paranoid about the pschiatrists motives for putting me on the mertazapine I loved the thought of my doset box shutting When I was on 300 of the Venlafaxine it would pop open if I didn't arrange the pills carefully. It was like packing a suitcase.

Hi Kat. I'm glad you are coming round a bit even if you have had to back up to 150. Maybe it wasn't just the right time for you. I get the bit about the dosage box. That made me giggle. I bought a pill box that has three compartments and spend ten minutes in the morning playing tetris with my pills, trying not to knock it over while balancing it on my lap and keeping the cats away. I have to take my first dose as it won't fit in....LOL Funny how cats won't take their own meds without a fight but if my daughter gets her antihistamines out theres the cat!

I've been a bit low recently. Too much time at hospital and doctors. I don't feel like myself at the moment. The physical limitations are affecting my mental well being but I'm hoping to hear something soon about being operated on. It's just one of those things that I'm trying to laugh about. Looks like my tendons in my shoulder have burst so I said to the doctor that I need some new knicker elastic then!.....LOL......Bit more serious than that though

Sheila I was just thinking about you and your shoulder. I'm really sorry it got worse and now needs surgery. I hope the surgery fixes things, at least a bit.
I know what you mean about cats - cats are fascinated with anything private or delicate. Its like they have a sixth sense for knowing when its a bad time to rub themselves round your ankles. When one of our cats was really ill with feline leukemia we found out something really interesting (and a little perverse). For months we had been feeling awful as it always took 2 of us to give him his meds. One evening he wasn't playing ball at all and was extra squirmy and my dad dropped the pill on the kitchen floor. We decided to take a break and let him chill out and then try again in a bit. The next thing we know he's looking at the pill on the floor and sniffing it and tapping it around with his paw. Two minutes later he's licked it off the floor!
From then on we'd wait till he was napping on the sofa and give him a stroke. When he was happy and purring I'd put a pill on the side off my hand and he'd just lick it off.

i hope you feel better sheila,

I am having probs with my knees. Might have bone growths and my ankle is all wonky.

Staying positive, looking for a part time job to help pay for bills and a storefront for my business

Thanks guys. I just needed to get my thoughts out of my head. I will be happier when I have a date for getting my shoulder fixed. I've got to the point that I'm not bothered about the size of the scar so long as the pain goes. It's made me tired and a little grumpy but I musn't be too bad as I still have my friends....LOL

I wonder if my depression is coming back, having problems sleeping again. It could be the fact my business is not doing well at the moment

maybe it will look up in september, but I do need to make at least $400 a month to pay loans

I don't want to apply for social assistance, but I might have too. I have to stick to my guns and hold up for a year

I'd bet that your current depression is just situational. Keep pushing on with your business and keep busy. If you have to apply for social assistance then you have to. I have faith in you, Michelle.

I just got out of the hospital again for depression a week ago. I hadn't been taking my meds properly, but now my mom is controlling my meds, so I am sure to take them. I had a job interview last Friday and it went really well, so I hope I get the job b/c I haven't worked in 14 months. Keep your fingers crossed for me!

Sorry kiddo & michelle that things haven't been good Big cyberhugs winging there way to you both. I've been pretty shitty too On the plus side I had an assessment today for psychotherapy and, although my face stings from crying it felt like it went okay. I've got a follow up appointment in a couple of weeks but she said that she's thinking art therapy or psychotherapy. Although I love creating I'm a bit uncertain about art therapy. I told her what my worries were though so I will just have to see how it goes.

best to luck for you. I find some days are worst then others

when i was been bullied in high school i really just felt awfull and became depressed but what helped me through was the idea of once you hit the bottom the only way is up .

it is, I have hit bottom a few times. It takes effort, but you slowly build yourself up

yeah but unfortunately thats hard to think in the depths of depression. Sometimes it feels as if when you hit rock bottom the only way is to end it all. I know thats not nice to say but I've had those thoughts a lot over the years. I've only ever acted on them once and wouldn't do anything now - I just get the thoughts and then beat myself up because it feels like such a cruel thing to do to others, especially my bf.

I have really bad anxiety. I have social anxiety disorder, and I get panic attacks at the worst possible times! Depression I think goes in hand with that, but since I haven't been taking my meds for the problems, I hope I can overcome this stuff. I'm waitressing at a tavern and I really hope that will help