i hate me

well, not actually me. my body. i cry 3-4 times a week about my stomach...and i have the most ridiculous ideas about what would happen IF i was skinny. more people would like me, i would get prettier, life would be easier...and i know its not true!! i eat healthy and all that i just dont exercise because people at my school laugh at me because i can run fast or play sports. so now i have this complex about working out.
i feel terrible about myself but i feel better when im really hungry cuz i feel like thats the right thing to do.

ugh.

im not anorexic or anything close, but im still kinda fat, i stopped going to swim team because i had to wear a swim suit, and i hate going out in public because of my stomach.

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86 replies since 5th December 2008 • Last reply 5th December 2008

I basically have the same thing, except I don't do the exercise or diet thing. I go through phases of eating disorders, so I know that it's a dangerous area for me to really keep an eye on what I'm eating.

Not that long ago, I was watching TV and there was this advert for one of those vibrating pulse things that tones your stomach - just the sight of those tiny stomachs made me burst into tears because I knew that even if I got that small, I probably still wouldn't be happy.

I just really hate that we've all been duped like this. It's just this massive trick that society's played on us, making us think it MATTERS. And god it just makes me so angry that even though I know, know solidly for a fact that it doesn't matter, I still care and I don't know if I can ever really stop myself. It's pretty nasty.

But umm you're lovely! And nice things

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yeah, i know it doesnt matter, i have a boyfriend, friends, famliy who loves me, everything that matters but i'm still unhappy.

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Trust me, I know. My boyfriend constantly tells me I'm beautiful and that he loves me, I've got really good friends and I'm not unhealthy. But I'm just not allowed to be happy.

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you know I am not that athelethic but I do yoga to tone up!! I think you are beautiful. Hug time

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You know I think it's interesting how women seem to have so many more body image problems than men. At least on the surface.... there are so many things that I would love to change about the way I look... which is silly. There are people in all of our lives who tell us how beautiful we are on a daily basis, so why is it that we refuse to believe it?

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oh.. that´s bad.. Swimming helps you to stay fit. Take a picture of your belly and put it in the other thread "Join the Rebellyon!" and take a look on the Amanda Palmer site too you will see that we all have bellys of different sizes.. There are also a lot of women who don´t have the perfect body but they look wonderful.
I have not the perfect size too...
Having a sweet smile,having an aura of positivity,or a good character is much better than only be perfect.
Sometimes it´s just the many little mistakes we have which makes us more attractive ...
I think they make us unique ;)
Take a look at all those pretty women they are so beautiful but not perfect...

http://www.ftd.de/asset/Image/2006/11/09/dove.jpg

I don´t think that this is your real problem.
The Problem is that you maybe are not enough self-confidently and don´t believe in what you can and in you as a person(well that´s what I think)


When you want to be thin then you have to work for it,but not for others.. Only because you want it ;)

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Hey I have an idea!! A good thing to do for this thread (Jess you gave me the idea! heh) is to take a picture and post of either the flaws that you are most uncomforatable about (and then we'll all tell you how beautiful you are!! ) or take a picture of a flaw that you ARE comforatable with and which you have now embraced as a part of your beauty! HappyDDD

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My boyfriend always says to me that he'll say nine nice things and one horrible thing, and I'll always pick up on the horrible thing. It's pretty horrible that that's true.

I can't really say about the whole gender thing, as I've only ever been a woman!

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I know how that goes- I do that too! I think it's the perfectionist in every woman that makes us pick up on the one bad thing instead of all the good stuff. But here's something to start the idea i proposed. When i was born my intestines were not connected, so i popped out and was pretty much cut open, sewn up and stitched back together. I've had this scar forever, and i used to have a really hard time with it because people would make so much fun of me. They'd say things like 'how could you go out in a two piece like that?' or why don't you cover that up or ewwww. i even had a guy break up with me over it. LoL. But now I'm over it and I think it gives me character!

The little hole up top is where I had a feeding tube.... apparently when i was little, i thought that was my bellybutton. Which makes sense i suppose, since i don't really have much of one. LOL

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You should really send that to the Rebellyon guys and tell them your story, they'd love it. And I can kinda see why you'd think that was a belly button =P

It's not as bad, but my sister had two holes in her heart when she was born, so she's got a huge white scar down her chest. I know she's really insecure about it but she's learnt to live with it. And that guy who broke up with you about it - quite clearly a jerk. Enough said, really.

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^^ Maybe it helps courtney to recognize that we are all not perfect.But I can´t take pictures right now...
Happy My camera doesn´t work Happy

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Haha that's okay. I should stop hijacking this thread now =P

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No Kitten - don't leave us!! At the moment, we're the only ones keeping this thread alive!! :: sniff :: !! Tongue

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its ok i love that idea!! i think we should do that.

if i had my camera i would upload a pic but...yeah. i dont its been confiscated. :\

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