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Lakesha, I'm so sorry! That makes me angry that mental health professions would treat you that way. Sounds to me as if they need to change professions! You're not hopeless! No one is! I know it's hard to do things when you're depressed, but maybe search online for a mental health advocacy group in your area. I'm a member of NAMI.org and they've been very helpful toward me. They have a listing of offices nationwide and a listing of e-mails of people you can contact.

thanks all. there are oer treament centers but we have no way of getting there(no car and no bus takes you there) and my insurance only covers certain treatment centers(and that's very few). Ineed Medicare in order to get betterr treatment and I only get medicare with Social Security Income which I've been trying for 2 years to get and won't even haeve a hearing until september.

Basically they are delaying everything.

and thanks arty kitkat I'll check it out

Where I live, our county has a service that's free, and they take people to medical appointments. You might check with your local health department to see if there's a program like that where you live.

i know that stuff like that doesn;t work for everyone. it did help my mom. she was raised to be able to care for herslef, and her sisters helped her very much. she might be a bit crazy(in a good way, like most of my friends and me are too), not very social, and overall not the mom you might think of as the perfect mom...but to me, she is the perfect mom because i am who i am thanks to her. and i'm very glad she better...
depression is a real disease. i've seen that in her. and i hope you get well soon lakesha.
and the delaying is just stupid.

hey lakesha, i totally know what you mean about people thinking yu want attention... they almost make it taboo to say your not feeling good, and then you begin to resent being made silent and that then turns to thinking no one cares.... i always used end up writing down who i thought would go to my funeral and everytime the list would get shorter and shorter untill eventually i figured no one would even notice and if they did theyd be happy i was gone.... i wish i could say something that would help and i wish that you didnt feel this way, but i know how it feels to feel bad for ding something you enjoy feeling like you dont deserve to be happy... i dunno.... life seems unfair and its sometimes hard to even find the tunnel let alone the light at the end of it but i guess all you can do is keep on going, keep trying and maybe day by day youll feel better... only do things that you love, only spend time with people who make yu feel loved, only do things that make you feel happy even if its only for a minute.... and never let anyone make you feel bad for how you feel or make you feel like an attention seeker for needing help, dnt take their shit... they are being paid to help people so let them earn their money i hope the fact that others feel similar to you helps, knowing im not alone helps me....

Suzi, you are very lucky to have such a strong family that loves one another and is very supportive! Your mother is very lucky to have you as a daughter! <3

Annie, you are so right! I've had so many people try to minimize my feelings or make me hide my emotions because it makes them uncomfortable. It makes it hard to reach out for help. It does make you feel that no one cares. I know, deep down, that the people close to me who do this to me quite regularly really do care; but they don't understand my disease and don't know how to help me. I've tried to get them to go to support groups with me, but they got angry and stormed out of my house after I asked. It really hurts that they don't even want to try to learn, but I know in their situation its because they are afraid to know what I'm going through inside b/c they've seen how ugly it can get on the outside.

The way the mental health professionals have accused Lakesha of attention seeking behavior really makes me angry. What's she is seeking is help! Don't they realize that by saying that to someone with a mental illness it makes the chances that they seek help in the future less likely? Who wants to go to a doctor who is going to accuse you of making things up just to get attention? They should be brought before the board of ethics and lose their licenses!

Lakesha, I really hope you are doing well. You are always in my thoughts. Please give us an update on how you're doing if you feel like doing so. It's obvious that many people here care and want you to get the proper help so you can start getting better. Much love!

Suzi, you are very lucky to have such a strong family that loves one another and is very supportive! Your mother is very lucky to have you as a daughter! <3

Annie, you are so right! I've had so many people try to minimize my feelings or make me hide my emotions because it makes them uncomfortable. It makes it hard to reach out for help. It does make you feel that no one cares. I know, deep down, that the people close to me who do this to me quite regularly really do care; but they don't understand my disease and don't know how to help me. I've tried to get them to go to support groups with me, but they got angry and stormed out of my house after I asked. It really hurts that they don't even want to try to learn, but I know in their situation its because they are afraid to know what I'm going through inside b/c they've seen how ugly it can get on the outside.

The way the mental health professionals have accused Lakesha of attention seeking behavior really makes me angry. What's she is seeking is help! Don't they realize that by saying that to someone with a mental illness it makes the chances that they seek help in the future less likely? Who wants to go to a doctor who is going to accuse you of making things up just to get attention? They should be brought before the board of ethics and lose their licenses!

Lakesha, I really hope you are doing well. You are always in my thoughts. Please give us an update on how you're doing if you feel like doing so. It's obvious that many people here care and want you to get the proper help so you can start getting better. Much love!

Suzi, you are very lucky to have such a strong family that loves one another and is very supportive! Your mother is very lucky to have you as a daughter! <3

Annie, you are so right! I've had so many people try to minimize my feelings or make me hide my emotions because it makes them uncomfortable. It makes it hard to reach out for help. It does make you feel that no one cares. I know, deep down, that the people close to me who do this to me quite regularly really do care; but they don't understand my disease and don't know how to help me. I've tried to get them to go to support groups with me, but they got angry and stormed out of my house after I asked. It really hurts that they don't even want to try to learn, but I know in their situation its because they are afraid to know what I'm going through inside b/c they've seen how ugly it can get on the outside.

The way the mental health professionals have accused Lakesha of attention seeking behavior really makes me angry. What's she is seeking is help! Don't they realize that by saying that to someone with a mental illness it makes the chances that they seek help in the future less likely? Who wants to go to a doctor who is going to accuse you of making things up just to get attention? They should be brought before the board of ethics and lose their licenses!

Lakesha, I really hope you are doing well. You are always in my thoughts. Please give us an update on how you're doing if you feel like doing so. It's obvious that many people here care and want you to get the proper help so you can start getting better. Much love!

Suzi, you are very lucky to have such a strong family that loves one another and is very supportive! Your mother is very lucky to have you as a daughter! <3

Annie, you are so right! I've had so many people try to minimize my feelings or make me hide my emotions because it makes them uncomfortable. It makes it hard to reach out for help. It does make you feel that no one cares. I know, deep down, that the people close to me who do this to me quite regularly really do care; but they don't understand my disease and don't know how to help me. I've tried to get them to go to support groups with me, but they got angry and stormed out of my house after I asked. It really hurts that they don't even want to try to learn, but I know in their situation its because they are afraid to know what I'm going through inside b/c they've seen how ugly it can get on the outside.

The way the mental health professionals have accused Lakesha of attention seeking behavior really makes me angry. What's she is seeking is help! Don't they realize that by saying that to someone with a mental illness it makes the chances that they seek help in the future less likely? Who wants to go to a doctor who is going to accuse you of making things up just to get attention? They should be brought before the board of ethics and lose their licenses!

Lakesha, I really hope you are doing well. You are always in my thoughts. Please give us an update on how you're doing if you feel like doing so. It's obvious that many people here care and want you to get the proper help so you can start getting better. Much love!

Lakesha I am thinking about you too,it upsets me that helth care proffessionals ignore you. be strong! lots of love

I'm doing better I spent the last week in a psychiatric hospital though

Lakesha L .So glad that you got the help you need.I hope you have a good team around you to support and build on your recovery.
Well done everyone for being open ,honest and supportive.When i arrived in the US I mentioned my winter blues to a new physician so a simple Vit D level was done.My levels were really low.So for the first winter in about 15yrs I've been taking Vit D supplements and so far things are looking good.Just another lesson that living with a mental health diagnosis is about -learning what works for you.

I'm sorry Lakesha that it became so bad that you needed to be admitted. Sometimes though that can be the catalyst for getting the help you need. Last April I became extremely low with some slightly psychotic symptoms. I get horrible thoughts which feel like they don't belong to me and feel like premonitions so they can be awful as I believe that these things are inevitable and they are so vivid. They're not like negative thoughts or nightmares, they're very hard to explain but at my worse I believed that at some point in the near future I was dead and I'd killed myself and become petrified of everything in the house. I ended up punching the walls and sitting, crying in the dark chanting some odd expression about feeling the darkness. It was pretty horrible but as a result I ended up being referred to the crisis team and I my place on the waiting list for CBT got moved forward so I got to see someone much sooner. It unfortunately didn't 'fix' the problems but I learnt a lot about myself and have developed better ways to cope with the negative thoughts and haven't had a spell that bad for about 6 months.
I'm really chuffed to see that you also said you're doing better

I'm still having my moments though,and finding a therapist is still a struggle. my psychotic symptoms were pretty bad too

hug, I know that doesn't really help. but maybe the though of having someone out there who understands and wishing the best for you, well it might make you feel a bit better