RANDOM RANTS!

Anne Rice REPRAZENT.

Ahem. Onto the rant.

I need to get out of here. I need to get to the city. I am so tired of the freaking suburbs of Texas. I don't know how I'm gonna make it another 3 years...

You take a vaca and GET THE F&%K OUT lol

My dad is an a-hole x(

I feel so horrible at the moment. I'm just down all the time, I don't want to do anything, I just feel like crying all the time. I don't feel right at all and I don't know how to make myself feel better. I've got a friend who's going through the same thing and he's just started on medication because he almost killed himself, and he's been telling me that he's still thinking about it and he doesn't think he'll live to 30 (he's 23 now.) I keep crying because I want him to be better, and I'm also scared that I'll end up like that if things don't get any better, but I don't have anyone to talk to. My boyfriend wanted to sleep on his own tonight but I texted him telling him that I can't stop crying because my friend wants to kill himself, and please could I come over and just sleep on the couch or something cause I don't want to be alone, but he didn't reply. Sometimes I think he's wrong for me because he's never really had any problems so he doesn't get mine, but I can't be with someone as unstable as I am because we just tear each other apart. And he doesn't mean to but he makes me feel like I'm not good enough for him because I'm irrational and neurotic. And my friend is probably off sleeping with my other friend tonight, when I asked the latter not to sleep with the former but he told me to fuck off, and then I asked him not to come to my birthday party on Monday and he told me to fuck off and that he's coming anyway, which is gonna make things lovely and awkward. And right now I want anything but to be alone and that's all I can be.

And now my housemate is playing music really loudly so I couldn't go to sleep even if I wanted to.

Aw... Knitten! I hug you! *gives you a big hug*

Heh thanks *hugs back*

It's been almost 5 years and the teacher who molested me is now out of jail. I really hate that I moved back to my hometown =(

Thank you Kitten!Im feeling all better now,the guys where great,they asked me to make a huge paper doll of myself and took it to Romania and told everyone they have a great singer!It made me feel so great!
And dont forget you have us and we will understand your problems and worries and always listen and try to help!I really hope your feeling all better now!I send you many many positive thoughts and hugs!

My rant is about my laptop and my brother!I burned the charger down and the battery is dead,so now I cant use it.I have to wait for the charger to get fixed,hopefully it will be done in a few days.
Arrrgh...my brother is making me crazy!Im using his computer right now,but he allows me only when he is sleeping.he can be so selfish!When he needs something Im always helpful,I gave him my laptop several times,so why cant he let me use his lousy computer?!
I can come online when he is asleep,but he wont let me upload pictures from my camera to the computer,so I cant post projects or post some pics of Moric to cheer you up!I brought him home yesterday!
I dont know why my brother is this way,I never broke anything of his.He can be so weird sometimes...

Blargh my friend is still annoying me so much! She's copied my exact style for the summer ball so we're gonna look alike, but she's bought expensive clothes whereas I've had to customise all mine so they're not as fancy. And the other night I was trying to explain to her about how depressed I've been and she just wasn't listening and kept talking about herself! It was like,
Me: The only reason I'm not self-harming right now is because I think Andy will leave me if he sees the marks.
Lauren: Yeah well at least you have a boyfriend!
Me: *smack forehead*

And now she's decided that she likes this guy our friend Roxie introduced to us, who spent ages trying to sleep with me but is a drug addict twat who just wants to get laid because he's a 19 year old virgin. And she keeps asking me advice and it's hard cause I don't even like the guy any more, after I asked him not to sleep with Lauren on my birthday and he told me to fuck off, and then came to my party even though I asked him not to (he didn't sleep with her but he tried, which means he broke his promise to me anyway.)

So sick of all of this. Andy's being really inconsiderate right now, right when I really need him, and my friends are all leaving soon =(

My boyfriend's ex won't stop stalking him and calling me a bitch. Um... HELLO!?! I believe I have the right to be a bitch to you if you keep telling my boyfriend that you love him, you think I'm cheating on him, that you're better then me, that you send pictures of yourself, you snooped around to get his new phone number after he had to change it to stay away from you!!! Ariance is such a scenie bitch who needs to leave my man alone. I told him if any time I went to Concord and saw her in public, I would punch her straight in the face, straight in the gut, and in the shins. I'm just so tired of her bullshit and so is he. I'm 18 now so I could be put in jail for assaulting a minor. But it'll be all worth it. I wish she'd just vanish for good.

god, she sounds looney. Look if your guy is into you he will just ingore her, and if you want to get back at her, you can tell the cops she is harrasing you or your bf. All you need is the phone records or messages she has left for you. Its the best to ignore her, but sometimes you just have to get them back.

plus its best not to say things like that to her because once assulat goes on your record it can never go away, and you don't want that. The best bet is to tell someone that she is harrasing you.

She sounds like one of those girls that would do anything to get what she wants, and thats not a good thing. If you say you are going to punch her, make shure its not on paper, email, facebook because she could give it to her parents or the police and get you into trouble.

SHE IS NOT WORTH IT. Or you can print those photos off if they are a bit sleezy and put them in her parents mail box. Mauhhhhahahahahahaha. She her explain that.

My boyfriend said calling the cops on her and charging her with harassment is going too far. Uggggggh!!!! God I can honestly say I hate her with a passion.

I say, there is only so much you can take, she is going to turn into one of those crazy stalker ladies

Ok,I had the WORST day today!I got my period first thing in the morning with horrible pain,not even my meds could calm the pain down.and then just when i started to feel a bit better I burned three of my fingers!It hurts so much,I cant even touch them.I can barely type this using only one hand.
I was taking dinner out of the stove and I made some vegetables in a glass dish and I was in a hurry and nervous so I forgot to use the gloves.So the steam and the glass burned my fingers really badly.It started to swell and then blisters and now its red and hurts really badly.
Then Joci came home from work and we had an argument.I hate fighting with him.He just makes me mad and then falls a sleep like nothing happened.I JUST wanted to go have some ice cream and take a walk.I understand that he works all day and that he is tired but come on is that too much to ask for?the store is five minutes from the house.I just wanted to do something together to make the day better.
I feel so down,I cant wait for this day to end.But now I cant sleep,because I feel sad and like crying.I hate that I have no friends to call at days like this.