Before I start my little vent.. i should warn you, I may swear.. a lot
My teachers dont teach anything. I have 5 assignments to do this weekend, none of them have been fully explained, havent learnt stuff in them. These fucking teachers give us a fucking sheet of paper, full of shit we have to do, give us a few fucking weeks, and expect a brilliant fucking assignment to be done. Im not the smartest, i'll admit it, but Im certainly not the dumbest kid in the school.. but I cant fucking do this. I dont know any of it.. I have a maths test on wednesday, which Im going to fail, because I've had so much other shit going on, and the teacher cant teach. The school have no idea what goes on in peoples lives outside of school, but they just assume theres nothing, and all our free time can be devoted to school work.. The past week has been hell.. at school and at home.. by the time I get on the bus in the afternoon, I just want to sleep.. I dont get a break from shit. At school its either doing work too hard for me, or my friends having a go at me, or random cunts throwing rocks at me.. and then at home, everythings always about my brother.. my parents couldnt give a fuck about me.. as long as everyone else is happy, its all fucking good.. what about me?
I forgot that I dont matter.
Then, cuz all this shits starting to get to me, Im pushing away my friends.. well friend.. that actually gives a fuck. I have no idea how many times I've pissed him off because of this shit.. but he's the most amazing person ever..
Im over my friends telling me Im fat, ugly, hopeless, useless, stupid and a bullshitter. Im sick of teachers telling me Im not good enough and I need to try harder, even when I've done my best. Im sick of my parents calling me annoying and stupid. Im sick of randoms throwing rocks, rubbish and shoes at me, Im sick of them spitting on me, Im sick of them calling me fat and ugly and a bitch (okay, dont deny the last one.. but they dont fucking know me) and Im sick of them spreadig rumours about me that Im a lesbian, because Im not. Most of all, Im sick of myself.. because I dont let myself be any better.
I'm sorry this is going on. I just want to hug you. And obviously these are NOT friends. You'd be better off just dumping everyone and focusing on yourself for a while.
If you need help with homework, I could lend an ear. ;)
Dess is so right, they are not your friends
the swearing was fine haha it probably felt good. you're friends are--no offense--idtiots!! you can maybe try to talk to people and maybe they'll help you
Keep talking it will help! Find an adult at school and tell them your hassles,write it down or share this post cos they have a duty to support you-it's their job.I so hear with this as it all starts again on Monday for our family.If your really lucky and have someone outside the family who you can talk to this may help or just keep this post flowing.
Re the rocks-thats actually assault and if you have a school officer a gentle word may get you some help.
If you have school counselor's use them they should know other ways that you can get support.
You've written a brilliant post summing up how lots of people feeling right now-let us know how you get on in the Math test ;0)
if you are feeling way stressed out, go see your school's counsellor - my friend did, and it was one of the best things she's ever done for herself. the counsellor (at my school, at least, dunno about anyone else's) can take your comments back to the teachers (eg there's too much work, they suck as a teacher, etc) and it may just help you feel better.
and for the rocks, i agree with Essex Debs
I've seen the counsellor 4ish times.. hes a bullshittin cunt.
He didnt do shit about anything.
I didnt actually see who threw the rocks, so there isnt really much I can do about it. I just know it was a group of guys in the grade above, they were walking behind me, and I didnt even bother turning around.. cuz they're just a bunch of stuck up cunts..
Sorry, it seems to be my favourite word today, sorry if it offends anyone
This week was a little better. I didnt get anything thrown at me, although I did have some prick come and whip my ankles with a piece of grass (like, we have these bush things at school, with really long pieces of grass) but I just laughed at him cuz he thought he was cool (:
I got a few assignments done, just three to go! Whoo! I dont know when Im going to find the time to do them though, I have a busy weekend D:
Oh, I got 67% on my maths test, not the best, when everyone else was getting mid seventies - nineties. But, I really thought I was going to like 40%. and I beat my last one
Hey you've made a good start.Well done on the Math test ( believe it or not that would 67 would be a C in the UK)You did better than you thought
Try and get those assignment done early this weekend is a long one you should have some time to enjoy it !
If the counsellor isn't working ask to see another there-should be room for this.
Great handling of the ankle whipping bullies hate laughter.
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