sug's overall RANT ARRRGH!
Okay its been awhile since I had a rant.It seems bad me who has the habbit in keeping it all in is about to explode again. *sigh*
1. My laptop is no more according the help desk ppl on the phone for my laptop its more than just the powercord...not sure if its a scared tatic or what but now my laptop wont charge at all, I am afraid to turn it on and waste the battery cause I want to get some disks so i can save all my photos(2006-current), projects, stories, music ect. I am using my husband's at the moment. THe computer company wants 398 dollars for repairs..which I do not have.
NOt to mention my brother sold his college book to buy me a world of warcraft the next expansion to play along with him and I feel bad that I can not do so, and dont want him to feel bad. I would load it up on hubby's laptop but I am afraid I might over do it along with the games he plays.
2. I am going stir crazy, I finally get off the boot, wheelchair and my foot seems to be hurting worse..could be cold weather but still. DOctors already told me I will not be able to find a job that consist of me being on my feet since it will cause more trama in its healing process. I want to be able to help fincially and be able to contribute so we can have extra money in between paydays. Yes, my etsy is open but its not like I am going to get sales like poptarts raining out of the sky.
3.I broke my molar on my right side of my mouth and I had been relying on that side for chewing since I chipped and broke a filling from a molar on the left side causing major discomfort when I chew on that side. I went to the dentist and they want 356 bucks to fix it. Which again I dont have and its getting to the point where I wont eat at all. Yes I have insurance..good ole army doesnt do full coverage on dependents on dental healh care. So this has to wait till I either win my law suit or tax income refund season.
4. I have been reciving nasty emails in regards to my husband being unfaithful. For almost 2 weeks I have beeng getting them and finally broke down and showed it to my husband cause some of what they were saying was just something me and him would only know. He denies that he is cheating on me. He plays pool 3 days out of the week and he had called up 5 of his pool league teamates to verify that he isnt cheating on me. They think they might know who is sending them to me cause this girl's sister use to fool around with him back in high school but they dont have solid proof....but this is bringing up bad memories of my first husband and I am freaking out on all the "what if's" that it seems like me and him are always arguing and fighting with each other.
5. Because of number 2 and 4 I am thinking that I am worthless,unattractive and feel so ugly and stress inside that I am bursting into tears every chance. I feel like I must keep busy, clean house, do laundry, wash dishes, sweep, mob, ect cause if i cant get myself busy I will start thinking those negative thoughts.
6. I just want it all to get better.
Thanks guys I just had to get this off my chest cause I know you will all love me no matter what.
Together we will make it all better
Okay...first of all...I LOVE YOU SUGS!
You will figure out the laptop situation...and if your brother loves you, he will understand. Either he can take back the game or he can let you keep it as a gift for christmas or such and you will play it when things get figured out. He will understand. Hopefully your husband will be understanding and let you get on his once and awhile.
You got off the boot, but you couldn't wait to get off the boot..and now you can drive and sew. Maybe you are just under a lot of stress and your body got so used to not having to carry it all for so long that now it's re-adjusting. You should look online for secret shopper jobs or for online jobs, I'm sure there is something..and I'm sure you could do secret shopping in one of those kewl scooters the stores have haha! Then you can complain about how slow they are!
Your molar is probably causing you the most pain, you are eating less...which is causing your body to stress out more. You need to find a way to eat enough, because otherwise your body will tell you it is hungry and become moody. Maybe you should start buying baby food haha! :-P
In regards to the nasty e-mails...stupid insecure girls who send out e-mails to people! ARGH...I will have to go rogue on this person and pick their pockets until they are poor! I hope he is being faithful to you..and the best thing you can do right now...is trust him if he tells you he is not cheating. If you begin to doubt him, he will feel like you do not want to be with him, causing more undue stress in the relationship. Talk to him sug...tell him your worries, I know it's not easy...but he needs to know..because that's what makes things work. Tell him how much it scares you and how much you do not want to lose him. Tell him you are tired of fighting and would like to see him put forth a little more effort.
It seems like you are doing a lot of things around the house...although you are home all day...perhaps it is time to give lilly a couple small chores to help out...like helping you get out the food for dinner or such..this will give you less to do and you will be on your feet less. Maybe you should start keeping a daily journal since you have so much difficulty expressing your inner emotions. And then when you are ready...share them with the hubby. or don't. I think it would be good for you to write down your feelings, because it's not the same as keeping them all bottled up.
I want you to get all better and you know I'm here for you if you ever need...even when i'm at the boy's.
I love you!
well right off the bat, you are amazing. You don't deserve any of this stress and you are incredible and cute and funny and random. You have no SUSTANTIAL reason to feel worthless or unattractive or ugly. Your laptop... well, hopefully life will end up working out and you won't even remember having a problem with it. Life tends to do that. Here's hoping Well at least now you can do tons of other stuff you couldn't before You get to, as KT said, drive and sew, and even ... do other stuff and jeez.... You just can't seem to catch a break... EAT NONSTOP FROSTIES That should keep you happy [it sure kept me happy lol] I really am sorry though. You are one of the most UNWORTHY people for this kind of stress. :[ You'll win your case though. You have to. It was their damn fault! and I don't know much about your husband. I do know that when someone see's a couple in love, they lash out against them. I had someone [I'm comparing these two circumstances ONLY FOR FACE VALUE, lol. I don't equate our situations, yours is obviously much more heavy] message both me and my boyfriend [I only got the message a few days AFTER this happened] in our truth-boxes. Each said the same thing, but flipped around. To him, it said "I helped your girlfriend cheat on you and I know she feels icnredibly sorry but I'm not" and a bunch of other stuff that wasn't specific at all. We broke up because of it. Then I checked MY TRUTH BOX and found the same message. I guess I'm just saying... its probably not true. Don't be hasty or crazy or accusatory, but you should still investigate as you already have. Just... don't say anything you will regret later. It WILL get better. I promis it will. I believe that when people overcome incredibly harsh situations, they get the reverse in return for suffering through it. I know you will be happy again, and I'm hoping soon. GET BETTER! DESI SAYS SO! I COMMAND YOU AND YOU MUST OBEY!!!
We lurves yewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww *hugggsssssss*
That is all. Simply because they already said what I was gonna say, and my shoulder hurts so I'll just say ditto and... that *points*
Dis. and Mama Zoe already said what I wanted to say...but here it is anyways
WE LOVES YOU SUG!!!! *huggggggggggggggg*
HUGS sq. You need em. I love u!
thank you YOu guys just know what to say to make me smile. Luv yas!
That's what we're here for ;) I'm glad we made you smile.
Shush about being unattractive and ugly because you're none of those things, you're the opposite
Computers suck, end of. They break when they're not meant to and just generally piss everyone off haha. I'm sure your brother will understand about the WoW thing, just explain everything that's going on to him and I'm sure he'll be completely okay with it.
And for your tooth, just liquidise everything! Haha. Nah, that'll be disgusting. Try eating lots of food that doesn't involve much chewing so it shouldn't hurt your tooth as much. Like soup, you can cook it in big batches and then freeze loads to eat whenever. It's easy and cheap to make, you can make it out of whatever you want, and it makes you nice and warm in the winter.
The silly girl sending you nasty emails sounds like a right bitch. Hopefully she'll see that she's just making herself look like a complete fool, but just ignore her until she does and don't let her get to you.
*hugs and love for Sug*
IT MAKES ME SAD THAT SUG IS SAD!!! I felt all the pressure you must be feeling when i read that! I think you've got quite a lot of proof from issue number 4 that he isn't cheating, if he had been cheating would he really have thought to tell his mates to give him an aliby?
You are pin up girl beautiful classic style
queen is right! Sug is HOT. lol
made u smile
wow thank you i am smiling big now! you guys are so good to me and I appreciate everyone! MWAH!
She is good lookin' haha! And she's my bestie! And she made me an awesome poptart necklace...and she has the cutest children.....
Definately pin up hot
BOW CHICA WOW-WOW!
woooootttttttt go sug!
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