first kiss?

well, the he made a drawing part-yes. for me? i dunno. probably to see if that would make me mad(i dont get mad. i get sarcastic, bored, cold, and laugh very hard. but i don't get mad. now they're trying out to see what i react to again, and its not working. picking on me is very hard xD
because they can't find my weakness. muahahahaha<---that's supposed to be an evil laugh =P)
anyways, so the drawing was a mean rat? and it was supposed to be me. thus saying i'm a mean rat.. thanks a lot. it was real funny, i laughed my head off. almost, that is 0.o
(i think being headless would suck)
and my name, spelled wrong(whaha xD) on his arm, in ballpoint. it rubs right off-i know because a stupid sorta fried of mine drwe on my neck with a pen like that and it rubbed right off with a little water.
crazy? probably xD but at least with a sense of humor(and the guy i went to a movie with didn't have a sense of humor. lame....)
well, he said suzi is crazy so i dunno. (but i am crazy so i don't care if someone says so.)
that cry of attention works-but he doesn't know it does xD
because i don't let him notice tthat for as far as i know.
logical, eh? oh and don;t forget the note in my notebook-but i dunno if he wrote that or someone else did.

well im 18 and yes ive had boyfriends and girlfriends but ive still never been kissed this may sound cheesey but i want my first kiss to be speical

that's not cheesy, i can't believe you can do that, if i see my bf i just Have to kiss him, just can't help it xD once, he calld me in the middle of the night, lil'bit drunk,stoned,you know, he was having fun with his mates... and at 2 o'clock he wanted to call me to say goodnight -.- i whas gonna go to him the next day enyway (better sad a couple houers later xD) so I tought to get him back, i woul'd kiss hem, al day. that diddn't work out the way I planed xD when I enterd the room he emidiatly huged and kissed me, so my lil' plan had failed xD

but Gloom, I think i'ts real cool that you keep you'r firts kiss for someone special :O that way you'll atleasd be sure it's what you want

no, it isnt cheesy! i'm 15, never had a bf, never been kissed, and i want to wait for someone special(or at least half-decent! ) too...

no, that isn't cheesy. at all^^
i think kissing the right person is good, especially if its your first kiss.
me? 15, never been kissed, never had a boyfriend. also waiting for someone good enough =P
(btw, that writing in my notebook turned out the have been written there by my friend T, trying to be funny xD
which i had been susecting vaguelly anyway =P)

whohoo how funny is your friend xD

yay suzi! another person who agrees and is in the same situation as me yeh i'm waiting for someone good enough too! haha

ah, waiting for someone good enough doesn't allways work-sometimes you have to get up and try to get someone good enough.
today, i was wearing heels instead of my beloved checkered allstars to school, and a new backpak(very colourful, with all these happy drawings-i love it!), while i usually have a navy bleu shoulder bag with vaguelly army-like(but in blue, and pretty) print, slapping around my legs.
so: heels instead of allstars, backpack instead of shoulder bag. i was walking to physics class, and some kids from my class were walking behind me, amoung which were D. and his brother. they couldn't see my face, only my back, with other shoes and new backpack. oh and i seemed taller too because of the heels. anyways, they were discussing whether or not i was suzi.
D.'s brother said no, that is definetely not suzi. a couple other kids said yes, that is her. i heard my name, so i stopped, and turned around, saying, yes-i am me. why?
they cracked up(D.'s brother was sure it wasnt me, so that was kinda funny), and said it was a whole new me. and said, sarcastically of course, i could walk very well on those heels. (i hadn't worn heels for a long time+it was a smooth, slippery floor=walking slightly oddly. thankfully, i got used to them again during the day.) i had to laugh, too-i'd heard the whole conversation about whether i was, well, me.
well, that was my story for today-but shifty_material, don't you have any fun stories?

erm, suzi, I didn't realized that. well until now.
invite them to the party this weekend?
and a little secret from me: I want a boyfriend. I want to know how it is to have a relationship. and maybe this time the kissing would be better ;)

(suzi, why do you post that long stories? I can't write more than this.)

hell, i would like a bf, too. i wonder what it'd be like....
inviting him to the party will be tough since we don't know his name or where he lives or anything. and we actually talked about that. or at least, that's what i remember. you were like, damn. should've thought of that before.
i allways write those loooong posts because i have to make up for my own shortness? no. i dunno. they just always turn out like that.
except for this one.

this one wont be long either!
today after gym i was told suzi is crazy by D. again. i told him thanks, but think of something new.
(i allready knew that, after all.)

I had a crazy dream last night.
there was a guy, in a girly shirt from the H&M and he came to visit me. but I was showering, so I had to put some clothes on fast. we shake hands and he gives me 3 kisses on the cheek, and he whispers in my ear 'your so beautiful'.
a little weird, I know.

haha well you're dreams are a lot more interesting than mine, atleast, for you guy's xD
I always dreams the same thing and about the same personne ^^
you can quess who xD

haha well i do have a story, but it isnt funny and would literally go on forever, like the whole length of this entire messageboard so far or longer! i could type it, just in little instalments like, if i can remember it! its about a person (me) and a boytheyve liked since year 8 (in england and in year 11 now- since aged 12, now 15).... if you like i can tell you it, since i expect it would help to clear it all up in my head too... if you havent already guessed they like him and he may have liked them back at some point, may still do now. theyre just so unsure... shall i tell you it right from the start?

yes tell mee, i'm interested now ^^