I'm terrified. I wasn't doing too badly yesterday, just not thinking about it, but now all I can think about is this horrible, disgusting thing stabbing into my body! And I've decided that I don't want to see the needle at all, because I might scream, so I'm gonna get Andy to go in first and get them to put it away while I come in and sit down. I just really hope I don't cry or anything in front of him =(

well if you do cry, he is not going to run away. He is going to be there to help you

I went into the room, sat down and just burst into tears before she even spoke to me haha. I didn't like it though, she did that thing that nurses always do where they try and do it without telling you so it's quick and they can go "See, you didn't even notice!" after, except I just saw her come round to my side and touch my arm so I looked around and saw it go in and started crying even more. I would much have preferred if she'd told me she was gonna do it so I could have looked away. And it hurt a lot and my upper arm really hurts now, like I've got a huge bruise all over it (this is six hours later.) Didn't feel too sick though. But yeah, I just sat there crying for ages and she was making me breathe properly and then I had to book in my next one *sigh* so I have to go through this again in a month, then five months after that.

is there anyone to help you with your phobia? my dad faints when he sees a needle

I dunno, most people I know just ignore it!

Argh, this guy I barely know sent out a text this morning saying "Hello everyone! Have a wonderful day you lovely people. It's goooood to be alive. X x"
And I know it's a nice message, but at 8:30 in the morning I don't care whatsoever what kind of mood he's in. And also yeah, he's saying have a good day, but all he's really doing is gloating about how happy he is, when just two days ago I told him I'd been really depressed and feeling like self-harming for the first time in ages, so it's not exactly what I need. Then of course when I asked him if it was necessary to text me at 8:30, he got all bitchy and pretended that the message was just for me and he was being really nice to me, which he was so not.

it does seem like he was trying to cheer you up, don't be too harsh on him, in his mind he was cheering you up.

I will give you a hug, whenever you feel upset and sad let me know. I will try to make you feel awesome about yourself

Hi there fellow ranters

I really dislike those sayings that don't mean what they say like...........

The bees knees - what's so special about them?

Rush Hour - nobody rushes and it lasts longer than an hour


And my husband snores!

do bees have knees?

and I agree, where I come from we have a saying terribly good, how can you be both?

I believe "bees knees" means "business". But I agree, it's annoying and not funny.

I don't want to be cheered up at 8:30 in the morning =( it's not a happy time!

I agree about 8.30, if anyone's cheery at that time of day I want to kick them to death. Mornings are for being quiet and drinking tea. I keep my phone on silent until I am ready to face people=)

It is very rare that I'm awake at 8:30 in the morning. If I'm not, and I get woken up by you, I'll kill you. If I am awake, I will be full of anger and will kill you. The only thing that gets me through mornings is kids' TV, and I don't have a TV now so I don't know what I'm gonna do when I have to get up for 9am lectures this semester. I'm sure it'll be a case of lots of tea.

lol I am perky in the mornings, kill me now

That's okay, as long as you're not perky at me =P

Nah I'm not that bad in the morning. It's largely that I hate being woken up.

ugghh just really frustrated with own money situation and my military husband is not due for a raise for another 2 years- so either we skim by until then or i get a "real" job but let someone else raise my kids in daycare, or my etsy store becomes crazy popular and i start making a living off of it

you need to do some man advertising, because your toys are amazing

Ok, I apologise in advance for this tirade...*takes a deep breath*
Doing a degree in Physics means basically being SURROUNDED by men, and I didn't think it would bother me. And although it didn't at first, it's really beginning to-they have such rapport with each other and I often feel a little disregarded. I do my best to join in, but it's hard work, and little things are really beginning to piss me off. Like their video game in-jokes, when I ask them about it they're just like "Oh, don't worry, you wouldn't get it". That's almost as bad as them saying, "Don't worry your pretty little head about it, female!" It certainly seems like that's what they're thinking sometimes.
Just because I'm a girl, doesn't mean I don't like video games, I just haven't had the time for them lately! And just because I can't keep up with all their in-jokes, it certainly doesn't mean I'm stupid! ARGH! MEN!!!
Ok, end of rant. Er, sorry about that >_< needed to vent somewhere...

vent away, men sometimes want to have there own little clubs, but to me a degree in Physics, wow. Thats amazing. I suck at physics, so I think its awesome you are doing it

AAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!!

Grrrr!!

Rant Over.

x

get it out

i hate my facial hair, grrrr. I has a beard, grrr

Gypsie Moon I plugged my husbands nose with my fingers first ( I know,eeewww...but I was desperate)
Im planning to get him some nose plugs or something,because his snoring is driving me crazy!

I hate that I have no money and cant get a job!And I hate that my husband is not working for two weeks now (Its not his fault,they are waiting for a new job,he is a limner)
And we have no money for two weeks now,I hate asking for money from my mother...And my phone is broken,Im out of cigarettes and have no idea how where going to survive the next week.Its so hard.And we almost moved in to the new appartment,but there are still things missing...We have no table,no Tv,and some parts of furniture...ARGH...
And it really annoys me that his father is not helping at all,he knows that we are on the bottom,but instead of helping us,he is just giving us a hard time about it.
I know all of our friend are out partying,having a great time,but we cant even afford to go out.
Uhh...now its better...
Im going to smoke my last cigar,plug my husbands nose and try to get a bit of sleep...

I am sorry hon, I hope things will look up for you

yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

two rants, or maybe three

anyway.

I can't find a job here in my hometown, because everything is make work projects(which means you need to be on employment insurance) GRRRRRRRHHHH or you need a universirty degree, I quit after two years. Ok Ok I flunked out, I am not that smart and I hated the whole wruting essays crap. and I failed really bad. I had study partners and everything, but I just sucked at it, and now-8 years later. It bites me in the ass.

We are having a storm outside, and I need ink to print photographs for a client. SHitty DEAL!!!!!! GRRRRRHHHH winter. and I have a wedding to shoot this coming Friday, so I really need the ink, but the largest town, where I can get it, is three hours away. and I really don't want to get stuck in a snowstorm.

Plus my knee/leg has gone all weird again, sigh. I just want it to be better again.

can't anything in this house be MINE!

i think i am a pretty selfless person, i don't mind taking care of our family, i like to give my time and effort to friends and those in need, but i swear nothing is mine around here and it makes me so mad!
my husband is always taking over "my" computer and camera. he expects me to put all my craft stuff away so we can use "my" table whenever we have company just because it is a little bigger than our regular table. my husband gets mad when i buy food for myself, and it isn't junk food or anything, things like tofu or special milk, i am the one who buys all the grocery and cooks all the food so if i want to buy myself a cetain brand of something i am going to do it and don't you dare eat it because you didn't ask for it!

right now i am so mad because my husband wanted to use my computer but it had my camera equipment hooked up to it so he disconnected it and now i can't find it anywhere and i have pictures that i need to get off my camera! somethings are MINE and if you have to use them fine i can share but don't friggin lose it!

OH AND HE STEPPED ON MU GLASSES TODAY AND THEY BROKE! and my prescription is expired because i haven't seen the eye doc in almost 3 years so now i need to go to the eye doc to get a new one and then order new frames and lenses.

he is just so careless sometimes it drives me CRAZY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

that would drive me crazy, glasses are expensive

Thanks Michelle,It helped a lot,to just get it out.Now we are staying at my parents house(they kept my room,how I left it), just because we cant stand his father giving us a hard time about every little thing.I got money from my mom for 2-3 days so Im really thankful to her.And it surprised me how nice she is to us,she didnt even say anything about us having problems.But the bad news is he is not going to work for another week or maybe more....But I decided to stay positive about this,I know everything is going to be alright at the end,so why be nervous?Whe can handle it! (Hmmm...am I listening to too much Bob Marley?)
Heather that can be really anoing,my mom is like that,everything is hers,even my stuff.Its her knitting needles,her chrochet hooks ( I bought my own needles so I know there mine) And I hate when she takes my clothes without asking... I always give my clothes to her,but It would be nice if she would ask... Thats why me and my husband agreed to share everything-I dont even know what socks are his and what are mine! :D

:) thats great V

I bought a super badge it badge maker from ebay. The seller said that there was enough kit left to make "some" badges, when I unpacked everything there was a load of random badge parts and no plastic covers so I couldn't even make ONE badge GRRRRRRR. That made want to say a VERY BAD word. I hope he likes his feedback=p

teehehe I bet it was some feedback

I'm in a fucking awful mood now, so you will just have to deal with the obscenities.

I went out tonight for Andy's friend's birthday, who I know and like. We started at the SU which was fine, but this girl (who I've probably mentioned before) who has been in love with Andy for like two fucking years was there, and she always such a bitch so I was keeping my eye on her. She didn't do anything for ages, then when I went outside for a cigarette she was talking to Andy and as soon as she saw me, she stared right at me and laughed and stroked him on the arm. I was so angry but I just went over and kissed Andy in front of her. Then we went to this pub, and on the way Andy let this girl who is best friends with the fucking whore borrow his jacket, so the fucking whore took his jacket and was wearing it, then kept giving me bitchy little smiles. I told Andy I was upset about it and he got his jacket back straight away and was really nice about it, proper made up to me. Then we went to a club, where the birthday girl grabbed my hand for a second and ran past security, so they gave me the option of paying £9 for the both of us to get in or not get in at all. But everyone else had already paid, so I had to pay the £9. Which meant I had £2 left to spend on drinks, fucking fantastic. But when I was stuck outside, trying to get Steph out so she could pay for herself because I was in tears at this point, Lauren (pretty much my best friend) was with her and the fucking vindictive little whore, and this certain excuse-for-a-woman started bitching about me, and how if I wasn't gonna pay to get in then why should I. But it wasn't me that skipped the goddamn queue, it was Steph! So this miserable mothercunt starts complaining about me to my best friend, saying I'm a cheap bitch and fuck me, and when Steph said we should go wait for me in the foyer she just went "Nah, fuck her, let's go dance." Then tried to drag Andy onto the dance floor.

That miserable sonofabitch, she needs to get her own life and stop trying to steal mine. I try desperately hard not to be violent, because I used to be pretty bad, but god, tonight I got so close to strangling that ugly cunt. And then I wanted to go back to Andy's, because I was pretty upset, but he didn't want me to because he doesn't sleep as well when someone's in his bed, and I understand that but I could really have done with a cuddle tonight because now I'm just sat alone in bed, crying and angry and trying to resist the urge to send some hatemail to that cheap trout.

I admire your restraint, I think I'd have punched her.