Woo woo!

There's this thing called V Inspired which has volunteering opportunities for teenagers, and I spied on their website a while ago that they're doing a fashion workshop. Only 30 people get to go, but I found out today that I got accepted!

It means that next Sunday, I go along to a nine hour workshop where they provide me with materials and equipment, all for free, so that I can recycle old clothes and make them into new and beautiful things. The really good ones are put into a fashion show, and even the ones that aren't get auctioned off to raise money for a HIV charity.

I'm so excited, it sounds like so much fun and obviously it's an awesome thing to put on my CV, and I get to help out charities! Awesome =)

I just HAD to promote this website.

I've been buying things from here for a while and they always send so fast. The products are really reasonably priced, and first class UK postage is always £1.

So here we go!

www.myvintagecharms.com

It was...okay. Got a bit complex; I hate my new drama teacher, and I had my first textiles lesson and hated it too. I got treated like I was in secondary school again, which I really resent, and the class was just full of preening little girls. So I dropped textiles, which meant that the block my favourite drama teacher in was free!

So I talked to my tutor, and he said if I wanted to change blocks I had to pick something up in my current drama block so I was "forced" to move hehe. So now I'm doing film studies!

It all starts next week, which is quite exciting. My EPQ is going well too, and my tutor group are nice. I may actually make it through the year!

Finally, a solution to my ear problems!

I went into the place where I got it pierced today and the woman in there was SO helpful. As soon as I told her what the issue was she knew exactly what I was talking about, and told me that it's the scar tissue forming on the outside. All I need to do is crush up some rock salt and mix it with water to make a paste which I put on the infection every night, then wash it off with salt water in the morning. I'll take a while but it should eventually go away haha.

It's just great to have some kind of solution! She even said that doctors don't tend to know a lot about piercings, they only know that when they hear infection they give antibiotics, without actually checking what it is.

I'll be going back there next time I get pierced! I'm so impressed

Don't get me wrong, I think they do wonderful things, and I'm so grateful for the NHS 'cause god knows it could be worse, but I always seem to get really useless doctors!

When I had my panic attacks, they didn't do anything except try and give me antidepressants when what I needed was help with controlling my breathing which I had to get from a counseller. When I was depressed, I got told I was just a teenager, and the problem would just go away.

I've now had this earring infection for months, and all the doctor can do is give me more antibiotics which AREN'T WORKING, I need someone to actually do something about this! Or at least take it seriously, don't just ask me what it is then give me drugs, at least look at the problem. I'm worrying now it's an abscess but how can I know if even the doctor doesn't know?

I also went to two doctors about a very private insecurity of mine, and they both told me completely different things! One said it was a problem but there'd nothing they can do, and the other said it was normal but then went on to imply it ISN'T normal.

I'm just so fed up with this, the doctor's meant to be the person you can turn to if you're worried or sick but I don't feel like I can, which just means I'm screwed.

It was AWESOME. I mean, I have to get up early and get a long train in and sit and stare at a computer screen all day, but still.
Today I got shown around the company, saw all the cool magazine pictures (so many pictures of Batman in the movie magazines <3), saw all round and stuff and it's really pretty. Then I got to spend a few hours reading through old issues of the magazine to get used to it and using the free CDs and stuff.

Then after that I got a task to do (yay!). The magazine does this thing every months where it reccomends ten gigs coming up in the month it's released, and about three more in the months after. So I've got to get thirteen gigs in September to write articles about (so I can cut them down after). But yeah, I have to find out what bands are playing, then because it's a drumming magazine I have to find out a bit about the drummer and put something interesting, so like for one band I put that this guy's the fourth drummer, and for Serj Tankian I said I hope he can compete with the SOAD drummer etc. It's quite interesting but I have to wing a fair amount. And I spent an hour trying to find out who's drumming with Madonna on her tour haha.

I don't know what I'll be doing the rest of the week but I know at some point there's gonna be an editor's meeting in a pub which I'm allowed to go to - yay! And it's quite free, I can wander off to get a snack if I went one, got an hour for lunch, free proper coffees and hot chocolates. All good =)

I'm excited, tomorrow I start my week's work experience at Future Publishing for Rhythm magazine. My friend is an editor so she'll show me around and hopefully I'll get to write something and have it published! which is quite exciting.

Also the commute will give me a chance to get started on Roma's plushie, which I'm quite excited about =)

On the other hand, I'm exhausted and will definately resent having to get up early each morning. But anyway, hopefully it'll be fun and I'll get to do some exciting things.

And it's four days till I see Dark Knight! Which I'm horrifically excited about.

And, finally, Big Brother makes me want to set myself on fire

Today was a very difficult day.

A boy from my college died this morning. The Friday before last he was in town and tried to stop a fight when he got seriously beaten up. The doctors had to induce a coma and he died this morning.

It was so horrible. I didn't know him but everyone was in tears, and in the chapel they were lighting candles and talking about him. Practically half the year went home and loads of lessons got cancelled.

It was just so scary that this guy our age died that easily. And it's so sad to think that he did it trying to help someone. I always feel awful when I don't try to stop a fight, but it's because of things like this.

Anyway, I'm reading Active Resistance To Propoganda and it's very interesting. I don't necessary agree with all of it but it's definately a good read, and I reccomend it. I'm hoping it'll inspire me to do something creative - I really need that right now. I'm also thinking of writing a Brechtian play over the summer. That should be interesting!

I'm sure many of you will remember my friend who got sexually abused at a party. Well it happened again, only worse this time.

After confessing that to me, she then admitted that she went out with the lead singer of my band the other night to a gig. He got her drunk, convinced her he was single (he's not, he lives with his girlfriend) and kissed her. She even showed me texts from him saying things like "I miss your beautiful face" and "I'm glad you got home safe, but I wish you were coming home with me". It's disgusting. What's worse is, she'd just told him about everything that's been going on with her lately, so he clearly just took advantage.

She's so shaken up from all of it and just thinks that guys only want one thing from her. I don't really know what to do to help her.

Obviously I've left the band. I've told three of the members what happened, but telling the other three won't do any good so I'm just going to leave it. I also won't be able to do work experience with Pat in the summer which is really annoying, but no way am I going near him now.

I've told him that he's got to leave me and Aureen alone. And now he's admitted through email what he did, if he persists I can prove it to his girlfriend (unlike last time).

Jesus, so much to come back to after Download!

On the plus side, I had my interview in the craft shop today and it went really well. I'll be hearing back from them tonight.

Edit: I got the job!

I have actually made a few things lately, I just don't have a camera.

My room has been redecorated
I made a chandelier
I'm in the process of decoupaging a chair
I decorated a jewellery box
I made a vase out of a coke bottle
I found an inventive way to show off pictures without using blu-tack

So...I shall get back to you fellows. Especially with pictures of my room, it's badass